It's amazing the things they can't do with modern medicine

[skylarking]

I went to see Dr Free. The blood test I had was clear, which freaked me out to be honest. I felt so shite earlier this month I thought there had to be something physically out of balance. There had to be.

Because it couldn't just be psychological. My brain wouldn't do that to me.

But apparently it is doing that to me, the tricksy bastard. Which only leaves the option that I am clinically depressed.

So

"Dr Free," I said, "I am depressed and have been for a while. I've tried really hard to shake myself out of it; I really wanted to be able to but I can't. I'm not functioning properly and I need to do something about it, what are my options?"

"Anti-depressants." Said Dr Free. "Seratonin levels etc."

"I'm a bit wary of anti-depressants, Dr Free." I explained. "There's enough weirdness in my head without adding chemicals to the mix. The thought of taking them makes me nervous."

"Well that's about all I can offer you." Dr Free replied

I went *hummm*

So Dr Free (who I liked, btw, she was just the kind of doctor I like to see – no nonsense but still sympathetic) made some notes in my file and said I should come back when I've had a think about, and that I might want to try some St Johns Wort or something.

So I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do now. I think I might take a couple of weeks off work and sleep and try and to regain a bit of equilibrium. My mum said that if I wanted I could go and stay with her for a week, which would be nice but I don't want to be all needy and in the way.


It would have been so much easier to know what to do if I just didn't have as much iron in my blood as I'm supposed to. Stupid blood.



It's quite strange to be officially unhinged.

I like that.

Officially unhinged.

I might have a T-shirt made.



ETA
Maybe I should just go for the anti-depressants. Maybe I should.

It has to be better than feeling like this. Doesn't it?

Comments

[indigo-blind.livejournal.com]

If you want to visit me you can i'll try and see what time off i can get?
Just a thought.

[light-the-sky76.livejournal.com]

That's a nice thought. Thank you for the offer :)

[indigo-blind.livejournal.com]

Well it stands for as long as well, you know...

I ordered Lost yesterday and it has a delivery date of 13-20th Sept, so anytime after that we can have a Lost-a-thon too.